Prayerfully the title got your attention, and you will read what could be my shortest, but one of the most important, blogs I have written. Let me share with you what God did in my heart over the past few days! If you are familiar with the majority of my blogs, Facebook posts, and Tweets, then you know they have always seemed to be negative, harsh, blunt, or as I have been told “bashing Christians”. Well, with the help of a brother in Christ, and the move of God, that is about to change! I know, it’s about time huh!
The last blog I wrote was titled something to the effect of Pastor’s need to Engage. It has since been deleted. The reason is I was “called out”, or confronted by a brother in Christ. Though I still feel that pastor’s need to be more engaged with making disciples and teaching, the examples I used in the previous blog were indeed inappropriate. Meaning, they obviously upset the person who came to me, and very well could have hurt others. Though the intention was to make a point, as always, the examples given concerning other pastors was seen as “throwing them under the bus”. If you haven’t figured it out by now, the people involved knew who the examples were about, and though each example had indeed been stated, and names were not used, it took my friend confronting me, and God, to open my eyes and heart to something so many had already said.
You see, my wife has told me since I met her that my approach was too harsh. My mother and others have stated the same. But, instead of listening, I defended my position. I felt that by pointing out all that is wrong with Christianity, or other Christians, in a direct and honest way, that maybe someone would get the point. When in fact, I made more people angry, was “unfriended” on Facebook, and confronted more times than many that have ever stated something a lot less controversial. Until the past few days. You see, my initial reaction to my friend was anger. Maybe not anger, but more frustration of someone whining about the truth. But instead of immediately becoming defensive, though I did respond to him, I thought and prayed about what he had stated. And then it happened! God moved in my heart, and opened my eyes! I have been going to school now for seven years. I have obtained what many would say is a lot of knowledge. To me I have limited knowledge. But anyway, the point being, I need to share what I have been given the opportunity to learn by God! I can be so much more effective in making a “point” by sharing tactics, reasons, logic, and a defense of Christianity. I can share what many in my field already share, but to an entirely different audience. I can share how God changed my life of agnosticism, through the Holy Spirit and apologetics, that may actually strengthen the follower and reach the lost. Which was my intention all along!
So, Praise the Lord for what He has done, and continues to do in my life! I am sorry, and ask for your forgiveness, if you happen to be one of the many I may have offended, come off as a know it all, or sadly,may have given you the wrong impression of my heart and the Christian worldview as a whole.
Beginning tomorrow, or when I write my next blog, expect to see apologetic content. The limited knowledge God has allowed me to obtain. And prayerfully, I can begin to do what Gods will for my life has been all along…
Disclaimer! Calling false teachers out, clarifying why false doctrine is wrong, and stating there is only one Truth is considered an apologetic.